Tuesday, July 19, 2022
Tuesday 4
Tuesday, May 31, 2022
Adventures in aging
I remember when my dear mother was alive, she would lament getting older. She was so depressed the year she turned 60, that my daughter and I took her to Disney World and spent the night - just to try to cheer her up. For me, it was 50. A half century! But I got over it.
Each year, each decade I've met with philosophical murmurings. It happens. You don't stay young forever. And I've always seemed to have a young outlook on things, so my age became simply a number. That is until I turned that decade that began with a "7". Suddenly, it mattered again. I suddenly felt old. My body hurt more. Health issues I'd dealt with for years suddenly grew worse. I lost my zest for life. Things that had interested me were put aside. Things I thought I was passionate about - my dulcimer, creative crafts, blogging just sort of stopped. I think I can safely say I've been depressed.
A few weeks ago, something happened. It was nothing that happened in my little world. It was all inside work. Suddenly, I began to feel a spark. As I walked around, hobbling with arthritic and fibromyalgia pain; as I again passed up opportunities because I was too told or not feeling well, instead of feeling resigned to it all, I began to get angry. For two years, I had wallowed in self-pity and depression. I was ready to leave it all behind. God finally got through to me that I still had worth.
Sound a bit dramatic? I'm just being real here.
I started with a list of people who in their older years still accomplished great things.